Chemo Day 3

Did gravity’s force increase?

It’s now the evening of Day 3 of chemotherapy treatment…the fatigue is intense. Fatigue isn’t really the correct word to describe what I feel today. It feels much more like the force of gravity mysteriously doubled overnight. As if there is a layer of heavy lead covering every inch of my body. My phone feels twice as heavy. My water cup feels like a CrossFit kettle bell. From the moment I woke it’s been present, and as the darkness of night fills the space outside of my house, the heaviness has not left me.

This sensation has reminded me of one of my favorite pun jokes on several occasions today. And you know I can’t resist sharing a good pun! So…

I read a great book about anti-Gravity last night… I couldn’t put it down!

I started the day with a brief drop in to our virtual Halloween party at Bridges. The highlight of my day! Dressed up as Wonder Woman, I was greeted by students in all kinds of fun costumes and teachers wearing pink wigs in a show of solidarity! What an amazing community I have on this journey with me. 💕

But, after just 10 minutes the pull of gravity was crushing me and I could not sit up any longer. I logged off zoom and made it back to bed. Moving from my home office to my bed I thought about astronauts walking on the moon. How they must have felt the opposite of how I felt with each step. With 1/2 the gravitational pull they would bound effortlessly. While here on earth in this moment my every step felt dragged down by the weight of leaded boots.

The scientist in me wondered what could cause this sensation. We know Gravity is determined by how much mass a given material has, so the more mass an object has, the stronger its gravitational pull. Could the chemo make my cells more dense? Could it make me more sensitive to gravitational pull?

So like any good scientific investigator, I googled it. “Is the force of gravity increasing?” Turns out that is the question of discussion on this Moment of Science online at Indiana Public Media, and their write up has assured me that I do not need to worry about a sudden increase in gravitational pull.

Did you know that about 200 tons of debris strike the Earth every day? Although most of this stuff burns up in the atmosphere, the resulting dust still settles and adds to the Earth’s mass. That’s about half a million tons per year! If the earth keeps accumulating mass, doesn’t that mean that the Earth’s gravitational pull has been increasing? After all, gravity is directly proportional to mass, right?

Wrong, while gravity is directly proportional to mass, you need not worry about a sudden increase in gravitational pull.

In metric tons, the earth’s mass is approximately six followed by twenty-one zeroes. Assuming that the Earth accumulates a half a million tons of debris every year, this means that in the sixty million years since dinosaurs existed the Earth would have accumulated approximately thirty trillion tons of meteoric debris. That’s thirteen zeroes. The point is, a number with thirteen zeroes is minuscule relative to a number with twenty-four zeroes. While thirty trillion tons sounds impressive, it is nothing compared to the Earth’s total mass.

That settles that. It’s me, not a change in gravitational pull.

Tonight I will start injections of bone marrow boosting meds to increase my white blood cell production as chemo tends to wipe those out. They tell me to anticipate some bone pain… more to come soon. This should be interesting.

11 Replies to “Chemo Day 3”

  1. Rosemary and Dick says:

    Beven, thank you for the science lesson. You are amazing to take us on you journey with this blog. We’re sending you love and strength. 📶❤️

  2. Julie says:

    You’re amazing Beven. I love reading about the experience and the science lesson is such a sweet addition. Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us and thank you for being you. Sending you love and hope and good energy for today 💗

  3. Nancy Hiser says:

    How unusual to feel all this intense weight,
    Beven. A testament to the power of the chemo,
    perhaps?!! I can understand your wondering about
    the biology/mechanism that is causing this to happen
    . . . Might be interesting to visualize millions of
    tiny lead weights smashing the cells that aren’t
    welcome. You are on the right path and have a ton of love and support being sent to you every moment of the day. I hope you can actually feel all we are sending and it is a bright spot. Nancy

  4. sherikanc says:

    First of all, I love you and I’m continously impressed with your motivation and positivity in life. Even under the stress of this diagnosis, you have created a beautiful blog to share this journey with all of us. Thank you. Sending lots of hugs and strength to you and the family.

  5. Schlifka says:

    Claritin helps with the bone pain. Yes, the allergy med.

  6. Melissa Gordon-Magnus says:

    You are SO strong and SO brave to face this process. Blessings to you today Wonder Woman 💪🏼

  7. Lauren Layne says:

    A dear friend who had breast cancer said CBD was the only thing that helped her bone pain. Worth a try in anticipation. Sending love today and always.

  8. Ashlee Dorsey-Gaines says:

    Love you and your strength. Right there with you as much as we can be (virtually) for now. Can’t wait until the day I get to walk into a party that is celebrating you being cancer-free. Sending love and a huge virtual hug ❤️❤️❤️

  9. Rachel Beavers says:

    Sweet Beven,

    I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I hope all of the love and support to fill your cup. I’m thinking of you always and sending you all of the positive energy and love.

    Xo, Rach

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