The Rollercoaster
Chemotherapy is a crazy rollercoaster. Today, day 14 of round 6, I’m starting to recover, slow but steady, from the chemo side effects. As expected, this round was indeed a bit worse than the last, the cumulative effects are building up and are even more intense. The bad days lasted longer, the good days were fewer. The ascent back has been slow and strained, like that old rollercoaster car clanking and its way away towards the summit. However, knowing what to expect this time, I was much better prepared emotionally and physically. I’m ready to power through the last 2 rounds.
Facing round 7 tomorrow, I feel like the girl in this picture. About to be dragged down to earth by gravity, an inevitable fast and scary descent ahead. The only thing to do is hold on and take off. There will be another ascent ahead, then the ride will be almost over. So like the little engine that could…I’ll keep inching back up this rollercoaster, preparing for the drop, chanting “I think I can, I think I can”. With only 4 weeks of chemo to go…I KNOW I can!
I was fortunate to have no allergic reactions to the new chemo (Taxol) in round 5 or 6. So, tomorrow we can start off at the higher dosage speed and it will take only 3 hours, not 5. And then the ride will start over. My last round of chemo will be on February 2nd. I will have a new PET scan done on February 11th, and then I’ll meet with my surgeon on February 15th to make a plan based on the scan results, and schedule surgery for early March.
Thanks for hanging in there with me through the ups and downs. More to come soon. 💕
You can see the light at the end of the tunnel! Sending so much love!
Beven, when I see the number of days increase
and the rounds increase on your posts I know you are getting closer and closer to putting this part behind you. You have mustered such strength and we have no way of fully understanding just how difficult this has been. I am thankful that you write with such candor and positivity. We “KNOW you can and will,” too. Soon this will be history and there will be sunnier days to really enjoy— Spring is coming as you said in one of your earliest posts.
Wrapping you with so much love.
I wish I could give you the biggest most genuine hug! You my friend have been such an inspiration to us all!! I love that you are a part of our family and I can call you the best lady of the house!!!! Keep fighting we are all behind you!
Beven – You are so brave. My heart is with you throughout all of this. Your photo is really pretty. – Hang on for that ride … you’ll be the first to “break the tape on Feb. 2nd. – Love you.
My friend, I so wish I could give you the biggest hug! Trust me, once it is safe for you, I’m going to be there giving you hugs and celebrating your victory! Until then, I will continue to pray for strength, peace, and healing. *BIG virtual hug*
Beven,
Please know I am doing my best to love you through this marathon!